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is it weird, that i used 128% of the 100% of my photobucket account?

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"These Words"

Threw some chords together
The combination D-E-F
Is who I am, is what I do
No one’s gonna let it down for you
Try to focus my attention
But I feel so A-D-D
I need some help, some inspiration
(But it’s not coming easily)
Whoah oh…

Trying to find the magic
Trying to write a classic
Don’t you know, don’t you know, don’t you know?
Waste-bin full of paper
Clever rhymes, see you later

These words are my own
From my heart flow
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There’s no other way
To better say
I love you, I love you…

Read some Byron, Shelly and Keats
Recited it over a Hip-Hop beat
I’m having trouble saying what I mean
With dead poets and drum machines
I know I had some studio time booked
But I couldn’t find a killer hook
Now you’ve gone & raised the bar right up
Nothing I write is ever good enough

These words are my own
From my heart flow
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There’s no other way
To better say
I love you, I love you…

I’m getting off my stage
The curtains pull away
No hyper bowl to hide behind
My naked soul exposes
Whoah.. oh.. oh.. oh.. Whoah.. oh..

Trying to find the magic
Trying to write a classic
Waste-bin full of paper
Clever rhymes, see you later

These words are my own
From my heart flow
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There’s no other way
To better say
I love you…
I love you, is that okay…?

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hmm, so i finally went to my gyn. i havent had my period since dom knows when. remember pixii when i told you that i was worried???
well i did a pregnancy test before my vacation ( negativ ) but i was living too angsty.. i wasnt on the pill and i dont think a condom is very trustworthy, so i could've gotten pregnant any minute.
so.. again the test was negative (*big sigh again*), but when i asked the doctor what the problem could be, he said (after doing a scan with that bloody stick in my vagina )i my hormones are too low ( or too few? whatever). so if i wanna get pregnant in a few years that could be a problem...
and this is a thing i didnt wanna know.
one more thing to worry about.
one more thing that could lead to an unhappy future.
fucking great.

i dont wanna get preggers now.. but what if .. like in a few years?