i'm shaking

and i'm close to tears.
the email in box at work is acting all crazy the last weeks and today a whole bunch of old and already deleted mails came in.
turns out one of my colleagues has been exchanging emails with our trainee.
and that trainee has written a bunch of really mean and bad things about me..
its not that i'm sad because i like her or something. its just.. actually READING a "secret" email that is so... *shakes some more*
i dont know, my hands are shaking and i feel like puking.

i forwarded the message to my account and then forwarded it to her, saying how nice it is of her, to say such "great" things about me..

i should be above all this.. she is not worth the way i feel and still i cannot change it..