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[nori1980]

wow, what a day. and its only 2 pm.
finally met my new therapist. shes weird, totally calm and relaxed.
and the first one who really really made me cry..
felt so miserable for myself.
she asked me what i expect for myself in two, 5 or 10 years and i realised that i DONT KNOW.
i just dont know what will happen and what i want to happen.
i know that i am not haooy with my situation right now but im too scared to change anything about it. i was close to tears talking, then she said,"and your worst fear is that one day you're all alone!"
thats when i couldnt take it anymore...

she offered me a group therapy thing. havent done that before, but she said it might suit me.
2 more dates with her alone. hopefully more crying as it can be very relieving.

i am one step closer to going to university and just give a shit about the fear of having no money and failing all the tests..

*le sigh*


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[paper-melodies.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[littlepixii.livejournal.com]

I feel like I'm stalking you with all my comments to your posts.. *shifty eyes*

Anyway, I'm glad your finding the therapy helpful. I guess it helps put things into perspective?

Is it bad to not have plans / ideas about where you'll be in 5 - 10 years time??

So what are you thinking of studying?

[nora1980.livejournal.com]

i really think about it now!!
im so scard about going back to school and that i might fail big time.
but it would give me a better perspective regarding working hours, free-time and money!
though it will be tough living of a little income and what your parents give you..

[littlepixii.livejournal.com]

In a way, I think that fear will motivate you to do well (does that make sense?)

I've never been to uni, but I think the benefits will far outweigh everything else: better education/qualifications, new friends etc.

Have you always wanted to go or is this something that you only decided to do recently?

[nora1980.livejournal.com]

after school i didnt wanna go, cos i had enough of learning and doing exams and all..

but i see so many of my friends going to university ( tom goes, too) and its just a totally different life.

i had those thoughts since last year, but so far i didnt have the guts to quit my job and go study,.. will take some time i think..