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Jan. 7th, 2005 03:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nori1980again a far tooooo pensive morning..
cant stop my brain from working its ass off .. uhm, yeah..
had a good discussion with tom last night.. about my and our future..
some of you know im not really happy with my job ( colleagues, working on weekends and bad salary etc), so we discussed if it is the hotel business itself, just the department of the hotel ( i'd love to switch to reservations or sales) or just THIS effing hotel.
In a way i wanna do something else, and i wanna study.
Tom did some researches ( aww bless him ) and found something in finances. i'd study 3 years WITH an ok payment and would then work for tax offices or in tax investigation for the federal state of Nordrhein-Westfalen ...
thats where my parents live, meaning i'd live closer to my family and friends.
doesnt that sound brilliant?
i was really happy about it yesterday, but it ruined my whole gym session ( even though i saw stacey's twin : ) cos i had to think about it all the time..
its weirding me out but I DONT WANNA LEAVE BERLIN..
totally weird, cos it was unbelievably hard for me to even make the step and move here..
i should be happy leaving ( if it works out..) but im not..
AND living alone scares me!!
AND i'd see tom only on the weekends.. ( you think that might bring the "SPARKLE" back???)
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh
why cant my life be EASY and WITHOUR complications?? huh ? huh?
cant stop my brain from working its ass off .. uhm, yeah..
had a good discussion with tom last night.. about my and our future..
some of you know im not really happy with my job ( colleagues, working on weekends and bad salary etc), so we discussed if it is the hotel business itself, just the department of the hotel ( i'd love to switch to reservations or sales) or just THIS effing hotel.
In a way i wanna do something else, and i wanna study.
Tom did some researches ( aww bless him ) and found something in finances. i'd study 3 years WITH an ok payment and would then work for tax offices or in tax investigation for the federal state of Nordrhein-Westfalen ...
thats where my parents live, meaning i'd live closer to my family and friends.
doesnt that sound brilliant?
i was really happy about it yesterday, but it ruined my whole gym session ( even though i saw stacey's twin : ) cos i had to think about it all the time..
its weirding me out but I DONT WANNA LEAVE BERLIN..
totally weird, cos it was unbelievably hard for me to even make the step and move here..
i should be happy leaving ( if it works out..) but im not..
AND living alone scares me!!
AND i'd see tom only on the weekends.. ( you think that might bring the "SPARKLE" back???)
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh
why cant my life be EASY and WITHOUR complications?? huh ? huh?
