one weird night
Jul. 15th, 2004 09:52 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nori1980couldnt sleep at all after jamie was on the phone.. my life has turned into some crazy mad world.
i still cant breathe ..
my own reality hit me, when tom asked me if i ever had the wish to have sex with him in the last days. said "no". truth hurts sometime.
i dont know why it is. i do love him. i'm just not getting turned on by him right now.
then again i had the third having a major crush on other guys dreams in the last few weeks. you know..the weird feeling waking up happy and thinking about it and realizing it was some random guy you were in love with.. and happily in love with. this time it was stefan, who i went to school with. i can really recall the funny feeling i had in the dream.. feeling all funny when thinking about him.. damn this is bad. i want to have this feeling back when i think about tom. but after two years, its hard to get that back. i even think i was a mistake to move in together.
well.. i hope i'll survive the next weeks without a heartattack. toms brother is coming tomorrow and i hope to get my mind on other things then.
*loves on jamie, laurie, pixii, anne, stace, nali, katie and all the other lovelies from the chat*
i still cant breathe ..
my own reality hit me, when tom asked me if i ever had the wish to have sex with him in the last days. said "no". truth hurts sometime.
i dont know why it is. i do love him. i'm just not getting turned on by him right now.
then again i had the third having a major crush on other guys dreams in the last few weeks. you know..the weird feeling waking up happy and thinking about it and realizing it was some random guy you were in love with.. and happily in love with. this time it was stefan, who i went to school with. i can really recall the funny feeling i had in the dream.. feeling all funny when thinking about him.. damn this is bad. i want to have this feeling back when i think about tom. but after two years, its hard to get that back. i even think i was a mistake to move in together.
well.. i hope i'll survive the next weeks without a heartattack. toms brother is coming tomorrow and i hope to get my mind on other things then.
*loves on jamie, laurie, pixii, anne, stace, nali, katie and all the other lovelies from the chat*
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Date: 2004-07-15 08:09 pm (UTC)EEE i was included.