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am soooo mad..
had huge and exhausting discussions with tom in the past days about him leaving early to visit his parents..and him being totally impatient with my therapy-situation..

we both had planned to go on sunday morning, now he booked his ticket for saturday, which makes my ticket for sunday much more expensive,cos you get a reduction when you book 2 tickets..and im gonna be confronted with things i dont wanna have NOW..

and now? his grandfathers birthday, the reason we were going in the first place is cancelled. wonderful!
I dont mind going, seeing my friends and parents, .. but for 120€? no thanks..
which leaves me with´the problem that he is totally going and i dont wanna stay in the flat alone..
so we dont have any reason going, but we're going anyway.. me on sun, tom on sat

nice one

the reason why i cannot go on saturday is a good one, though..

im meeting the girls from the Berlin-ROTK premiere, which happende exactly one year ago..
the extended edition is coming out on the same day .. so we're gonna watch that, visit potsdamer platz, where the red carpet was and go eat at cookies, where they held the party..
its gonna be awesome..9 girls, lots of squeeeing :D

and im gonna introduce lost to them.. thats a MUST..

thinking of that, gives me a lighter mood, but still GRRRRR at tom

sunday rent// just skip if you dont wanna hear it..

do you ever have the feeling youÄre missng out on something in live?
im 24 now, and i see people having achieved so much more than i have..
i see people that are my age in brilliant positions in their jobs and i think "what if im never having "a career" like they have, what if i keep on working like now for all my life.
just a break to have akid or two and then just work more..

my friend is reservations manager at a holiday inn hotel
my other friend is a police officer with a monthly income that makes mine look like a tip
i know sooo many people that just do this as if its the easist thing in the world..

sometimes i think its OK like it is.. just an easy job with a nearly ok income, but then it hits me.
what will it feel like when im really really old and think, ohh.. i totally missed out on that career thing in my life..