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since christmas there are official thoughts in my mind, that deal with splitting up with tom..
it was even tough to type this down right now.. and i havent spoken to anyone about it, but its in my head all day. how i could never do it and how hard it would be..
but then again, i dont feel any love right now and there are so many things that bother me
*cries*
my parents will leave tomorrow
*cries some more*